Never Realized.....

Ok, it's been forever since I wrote in here..  I was all excited to blog for about 3 days and then I realized that doing this actually requires some amount of work and dedication... So as I'm sitting here with an empty office wondering why I'm not writing my paper due Sunday instead of this, I can't come up with a legit reason nor do I think I need one... I'll write my paper when I feel like it!! (I was stomping my feet and crossing my arms channeling Izabella if you couldn't already see it in your head..) 

Anywho.. Since my mind loooooves to wonder I was sitting there the other night thinking about all the things that I never realized or did and just didn't take the time to notice like...

I never realized how relaxed I am at night sitting outside staring at the stars... 

Josh and I do not get that much time together alone... Usually after we put the kids to bed we like to sit outside for 5-10 mins (or however long we can get without one of the kids getting up to find us,) and talk about our day or sometimes nothing at all.. I've realized though that that little amount of time we get can be a matter of going at each others throats or not. Listening to some Bob Marley at the same time isn't bad either... That guy was truly an inspiration of living a happy life... 

I never realized how much my kids truly love each other...

I mean obvi I know they love each other they're brother and sisters but watching them when they don't know you're watching them is such a gratifying thing... I see how Aiyden protects his "little piggy," as he calls Mila, and since Bell and Sarai go to school now, it's been him and her more and more and their bond is growing stronger because of it. They have their own language and can get lost in their little world without a care and I absolutely love it.. Sarai and Bella are becoming such young ladies too.. The conversations they have when they think we can't hear them is hilarious and I love peeking around the corner and seeing all 4 of them singing and dancing in their room like they rule the world... I can't wait to see what successful little human beings they're going to become..

I never realized what having "cousins" really meant until my kids and nieces..

My family is not a traditional one in the sense that I grew up around all my aunts, uncles, and cousins. When my grandma had my mom she was almost 50 so all my cousins are my mom's age pretty much.. My dad's side it was just him and his older sister.. She had 2 sons but we've never been close.. Our family is the type that we see each other twice a year for holiday's and 3 if someone dies.. Sad I know, but that's all I've ever known. I think with my dad it was different before my tata died.. I can remember BBQ's all the time with them but once he died I can't remember that happening anymore. Once my sister and I started having kids we SWORE that our family wouldn't be like that and so far it hasn't. I see my niece's all the time and we try and have family dinners at least once a week. Our kids are pretty close in age, my niece and son are 2 months apart and then my other niece and baby daughter are about 5 months apart. They're together all the time and call each other "best cousin friends." Being close as a family and my kids and my sister's kids knowing that we'll always be together is a good feeling inside. I can't wait for them to start school together.. My sister and I have already decided to take turns going to get them out of detention because their school has NO CLUE what they are getting themselves into!! LOL... Sorry in advance principle of our kids school!!

I never realized that true love REALLY existed until my parents and then grandparents...

Now days divorces are trending like it's the IT thing for Fall.. I realize that things happen that people can't get over and they can't physically or emotionally continue in a relationship with that person but I also think that people are so quick to throw in the towel. Back in the day divorce was unheard of or acceptable. My dad's parents got married young and stayed together until death did them part.. My mom's parents on the other hand were the old school Romeo and Juliet. My grandma got married and had my uncles and unfortunately the guy she was married too used to beat the hell out of her. If you ever met my grandma, you would know that she takes shyt from NO ONE, hence the divorce. So not only did my grandma get divorced but then she remarried my grandpa who was also not Mexican. (Back then that was a no no) So then my grandma gets disowned for a bit but she stayed with my grandpa who I think was the true lover of her life and they had my mama... She went through some shyt with him let's be clear about that, but she never gave up.. They loved each other more than anyone person could ever love.. My parents then met when my mom was a freshman in high school... They've been married now for 26 years but have been together over 30.. Again, my parents have had their share of drama and it was not pretty but at the end of the day, the love they have for each other is like the love their parents had for each other and because of that I don't ever see them parting.. Seeing how strong that love is makes me realize that mine is just as strong and only has the opportunity to get stronger. People like to give their opinions on my marriage all the time but at the end of the day for as young as we are... Our marriage so far is more successful than some who are older and have been married once, twice, divorced, or single.. SO HA! Lol... 

When you take the time to think about the things you never really realized.... It can open your mind to a whole different world... So realize all the things you never realized and see where you end up..